♥R.I.P. Little Chiko :(...

Very sadly you read correctly :(...not sure exactly what they did, but my kids killed him yesterday morning :(...I spent half the afternoon & before bed crying for him...it amazes me how I had him such a short amount of time & got so attached to him...believe it or not he was actually really helping with my bi-polar disorder as I am currently unmedicated until June 2nd...I was so lonely last night & I'm thinking that was a big part of why I couldn't sleep...R.I.P. my little water baby...Mommy misses you :'(! Hubs felt so bad about what they did he tried his best to take my mind off of it...so we went shopping for some new window a/c units to put in to beat the heat yesterday & OMGosh it feels SO much better in here...I can't believe Summer hasn't even really started yet & it's already roasty toasty outside...goodness! Yesterday all together was just a hella bad day for me...not only did my fish die, but I hit my head & shin coming outta the truck to go into Wal-Mart, but Dylon slides into my big toe causing the nail to raise up a bit, bleed, & fill with blood underneath it that I think hubs is gonna have to drill a hole in it to relieve the pressure in it...um can we say OUCH! It hurts so bad it kept waking me up all through the night just throbbing...you can actually see the pool of blood THROUGH my nail polish ugh! Speaking of nail polish I got to try my crackle nail polish last night & WOW I am in LOVE :) it's so neat...I paired the black mesh with over the blue collar & I am totally loving it!

»-(¯`εR.I.P. My Sweet Water Babyз´¯)-»

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♥Happy Mother's Day...

First off I want to say Happy Mother's Day to all the wonderful Mommies out there...I hope your day was extra special♥! The Picture I'm displaying here is of my Mother & myself when I was a smidge over a year old ♥! Been hella busy the last few days or should I say week it seems now just scrubbing on the house to keep from blowing up at anyone...house is looking awesome by the way lol! Didn't get my gift from hubs today as we have to work around paydays...so either this payday or next payday I am getting my hair cut & colored along with a mani & a pedi :) YAY for a new look I say! Got some new goodies lined up to buy within the next couple of months too & we just MIGHT have some good news on hubs end of things too...wish I could say more about that, but I have been sworn to secrecy till we know more ;)! Went to Wichita today to see my Auntie's brother in the hospital...he's not doing so good so if anyone could send some prayers his way we would really appreciate it! While we were there hubs took me out to lunch at Buffalo Wild Wings...it was our 1st time there & all in all it was ok...not sure we'll be going back any time soon, but the kids sure did seem to like it! Made it home just in time for him to go to work! Have I mentioned that it is now 101° here right now ugh just way way way way too damn HOT...& go figure we don't have our central a/c fixed & ALL of the window units shot craps last summer :( so we're stuck being miserable until we go get some window units...I think hubs said something about getting a small unit to put in here in the living room for now until next payday when we can get a bigger one...nighttime isn't so bad cause it's been cooling off rather quickly so we can flip the attic fan on & that helps a lot...just need something for when it hits the hottest part of the day for now so *fingers crossed* we can get some relief SOON!

♥♥Happy Mother's Day!!♥♥
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♥It's A Boy...

Yep you read correctly :) I am the proud Mommy to a water baby hehe! His name is Chiko which is a Buddist name meaning Light of Wisdom! I felt he needed a Buddist name since he has a little Buddha figurine in his home :)! He is a Halfmoon Betta & just gorgeous coloring! We bought a 14gallon tank as well for the kids to add some fish to next payday! Since Victoria is allergic to cats & dogs we decided a good pet for us would be some fish :)! The kiddies are SO excited about getting to pick their own "babies" lol! All Dylon talks about is getting some kinda shark & Victoria goes on & on about her "tiny water baby" hehe it's the cutest thing! This is LONG overdue I think...we should have done this a heck of a lot sooner! I got my surprise from hubs while in Wichita which was my water baby, Chiko, & he splurged on me at ALL my favorite places to shop & I got to pick every place we ate at...WOW it was so nice to be spoiled & pampered :)...thank you babe I love you! Half of my goodies I ordered online have come in...just waiting on my stuff from Sephora & E.L.F. & than I'll have all my goodies...I already have a list started for the next batch hehe! For Mother's Day hubs is getting my hair & nails done (mani & pedi)...won't happen till a week or so after Mother's Day, but that's ok it's totally worth the wait :)...he plans on letting Victoria get her hair done too & even letting her get a few streaks of her favorite color pink too :) such an awesome Daddy he his ♥! Welp I need to get my butt in gear & get the house picked up before the kiddies head to bed so I can really enjoy my "me" time when they drift off to dreamland, but 1st here are a few more pics of my water baby:

Much Love To You All!

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♥Cleaning, Cleaning, & More Cleaning...

Yep yep you read correctly...that's pretty much ALL I've been doing for the last few days! Doing all of this just so I'll keep from snapping at anyone :/! I guess you could say it's keeping me sane right about now! I stopped long enough yesterday to feed the kiddies & myself & to do a bit of online retail therapy! I am now feeling really guilty about the amount of $green$ I spent on the stuff I decided to splurge on...usually I am a deal hunter on beauty products, but I splurged at Sephora for once...all on some stuff I've been really wanting for a while now, but um yeah feeling like maybe I shouldn't of splurged as must as I did now :/! Hubs is still refusing to give me any hints about what we're doing in Wichita on Tuesday...I do know that we're going to watch Fast Five which you can preview here for those of you that haven't already seen it: http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=vcn2GOuZCKI&feature=pyv&ad=8931190141&kw=fast%20five%20trailer! I am so so so sleepy though ugh all this not tossing & turning at night is really starting to get to me *yawn* I feel like I'm literally running on "E" these last 5 days ugh...I could seriously stand a good nap right about now...wonder if my little ones will let me shut my eyes for a few minutes while they're watching Shrek this morning???? Welp off to get my shots out of the way & to get everyone some breakfast!

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♥Not Feeling It...

So the last few days have been rather BLAH for me as I have been a hormonal mess UGH...I really cannot wait until my doctor's appointment the 5th of May...I so need on something before I end up going off on someone...oh the ugliness which is Bi-Polar Disorder *sigh* would be super great if they had a quick cure for all this kinda stuff ya know! Ok gonna go veg some more as I don't feel like doing a damn thing right now!

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♥Happy Easter Everyone...

Hope ya'll had a GREAT Easter!! We sure did...the kiddies were thrilled by the carrots that the "Easter Bunny" left...hubs had them convinced that they were little "orange rabbit poop" left by the Easter Bunny LMAO...had some fun coloring eggs & hunting them :)...gonna use most of the 2 dozen eggs they colored to make some tuna & egg salad sandwiches for supper since we all have been craving them lol! I was up at 6am this morning ugh *yawn* all due to the fact that I wanted to make sure I was up before the kids so of course I tossed & turned all night thinking I wouldn't hear them lol...so yep SO ready for bed already! All in all we all today was a really good day with little mood swings (so far lol)! Hubs called his Mom in MO today & let the kids talk to her & she cried :(...I really wish we did live closer to her so she could see her grandchildren, but moving away from MO was the BEST thing we ever did for ourselves as far as our marriage...*sigh* you can't win them all right?!?! Used up my 1st Victoza pen (for diabetes) today so I imagine once he ups my dose I'll be going through them a whole lot faster! Good news I forgot to mention I am down to doing Enbrel injections (for psoriasis) once a week now WOOT WOOT one less jab for me double YAY :D! Here are a few pics from our day:

...finding the baskests...

...Dylon with his goodies...

...Victoria with her goodies...

...posing with some of their loot...

...dyeing the eggs...

...taking a break to give Daddy smooches...

...a little playing around...

...hunting for the eggs...

Not all the pics I took are here cause well that would be one super long post lol!

Hope ya'll continue to have a FABULOUS day!!

♥Happy Easter From Our Family To Yours...Many Blessings To All♥

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♥We've Been Hit...

By the Easter Bunny that is hehe...he left all sorts of goodies for the kiddies & in his hurry he dropped some carrot pieces LOL...seriously though the kiddies are gonna FLIP when they see this in the morning...I couldn't wait till in the morning I HAD to share it now :)!

Happy Easter!!

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♥Annoyed & Creative What A Combo...

I am sick just sick of being off my bi-polar meds...I have crossed over into b*tch city here & OMGosh it's not been a pleasant ride for anyone the last couple of days...EVERY single little thing is either annoying me or severely p*ssing me off at this point & I'm taking it out on everyone...I don't mean too, but I can't help it! Trying to keep busy by cleaning the house or being glued to my photoshop or making hair bows, but it's not enough...I'm going crazy! I've felt alone & wickedly depressed for days now & it's only getting worse...I want the happy me back, but will have to suffer till May 5th! That is why I have this pic posted cause it's a pretty good description of how I feel right about now! Found this while searching for bi-polar pics one night & totally love it!

On a brighter note all the photoshopping has paid off :)! I have revamped all my blogs as you can see here & my other ones which you can see here:

http://sweet-peas-bowtique.blogspot.com/

http://foreverminedesigns.blogspot.com/
http://mandiesbeautyspot.blogspot.com/

They look pretty dang good if I do say so myself :)! Getting really good at the blogger codes FINALLY! Need to do a few more for practice...anyone up for a blog change message me :)!?

Hubs mowed the yard this morning & found a baby snake & he & the kiddies were all gaga over it, but um YUCK, NASTY, & GROSS come to mind...ugh so hate hate hate hate hate snakes! Gonna dye us some Easter eggs tomorrow morning when hubs gets off work...the kids are excited about that...the "Easter Bunny" is bringing them a BIG basket of fishing stuff for Dylon & rock star stuff for Victoria along with a peeps lollipop, a chocolate bunny, & a bubble wand :)...pics tomorrow!

I have to admit I am SUPER ULTRA MEGA jealous of all of ya'll that are getting storms right now...where on earth are ours lol! Yep once a storm nut always a storm nut...ahhh the adrenaline rush!

Think I'll wrap things up for now really need to get my booty in gear & figure out something for supper!

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♥Forever...

I know I know it's been FOREVER and a half since I've updated anything on here!

::My Beautiful Babies::

First things first the kiddies are doing pretty great minus Dylon's anger issue we're trying to get worked out with the doctor...Dylon is now 5years old & Victoria is now 4years old! Dylon is such a smart little boy he blows me away sometimes with his mound of knowledge for such a small little lad! Still in shock that he'll start Kindergarten this year...goodness makes me feel old lol!

::My Handsome Son::

Victoria is as sassy as ever...she is really into singing and dancing and we catch her doing this ALL the time lol...such a little cutie she is! She won't know what to do with herself having mommy all to herself while Dylon is in school lol...gonna have to find something that her & I can do together!

::My Gorgeous Daughter::

Thomas is busy working as usual...he makes me so proud to be his wife...wants nothing more than to spend time with us on his days off :) which makes me a happy wife :D...he's itching to get some real fishing in lol so now if the weather would make up it's dang mind already & stay warm! He has a "surprise" for me next payday...says we have to go to Wichita for it and I keep trying to weasel it outta him, but he refuses to budge & it's driving me NUTS lol! Still hard to believe our 9year wedding anniversary is NEXT month :O where oh where has the time gone? Happy to say though that we are so much stronger now as a couple than we were all those years ago which is making life SO much easier on the both of us!

::My Stud Muffin Husband With Our Beautiful Children On St. Patrick's Day::

I was just recently diagnosed with diabetes so that's been a pain in the @ss to deal with all over again (as some of ya'll know I had a bout with it when I got gestational diabetes while pregnant with my son)! I finally found out that I do NOT have colon cancer thank goodness it was just a lot of small tears...got them fixed & we are A-OK :)! The Enbrel injections I'm on for the psoriasis is working wonders along with the new cream they prescribed to me...love it! Only downside to everything is I have to stick and give myself so many shots that I hate it :(, but tis life now I reckon! I am currently weening off my bi-polar med (Abilify) & omgosh mood swing central around here...doctor stopped it cause it was messing with my blood sugars ie making them TOO high so he wants me to ween off it & he'll put me on something at my nexty appointment which is May 5th and let me tell you it isn't getting her FAST enough! Oh I have also learned how to make hair bows and Victoria is loving them & they are selling pretty well :) which makes me ubber happy!

::Me With My Adorable Niece Payton:::
(Thank GOODNESS I've Lost Weight Since This Pic!!)

I patched things up with my Mom...we had a HUGE blow out in my front yard and really surprised we didn't get the cops called on us, but things are much better than they were and I think with time things will heal and we'll be in an even better place than we are now! On a happier note she is engaged to a great guy named, Mike, whom we all just love to pieces...he's been great for her all the way around!

I have completely disowned the "sperm donor" as he decided booze was ok to start drinking again...that's fine whatever my kids & I don't need him in our lives anyways...gotta keep my babies protected, but because I chose to do that his mom ie my grandma decided to cut me & my kids outta her life too...her loss I guess!

I am no longer associating with my sister, Dannielle, as she left a VERY nasty voicemail on my cell phone and pretty much told me I could "rot in hell" all over the cops having pending charges against her over what happened to my son (long story maybe some other time)...she wants to be that way so be it...I'm done trying there it's a lost cause!

My baby sister, Olivia, finally had a baby a smidge over a year ago, a girl, her name is Payton and she is a little cutie...she is one of those sweeties that lights up a room when she smiles...which reminds me SO much of Dylon...speaking of Dylon he just loves that little girl to pieces...it's adorable...he tries his hardest to keep her entertained...I do believe she won't have to worry about being the oldest cause she'll always have her cousin Dylon to protect her :)!

Ok I've babbled enough for now...will TRY to make a habit out of blogging more often :)!

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