♥It Finally Happened...

Hubs got laid off this Saturday :(. I'm still in shock! He has a job interview lined up for today *fingers seriously crossed* that he gets it! Things are so tight around here it's not even funny. We've seriously cut back on ALOT of things but it is a good thing it's savin' us a good deal of money! My pc is on the fritz which totally sucks! So I'm stuck with hubs laptop but can't use my photoshop so sad about that! Hopefully I can get it fixed on w/o havin' to pay for it! If that's the case than it'll just have to wait for how long I honestly have NO idea! We had an "oops" recently well make that a few "oopses" so really hopein' that AF shows up SOON cause chemo causes SERIOUSLY BAD effects for the baby & not to mention hubs bein' outta a job just not a good thing right now! I sure do wish hubs would reconsider a rubber to wrap that sucker up lol! Chemo has me feelin' like SHIT ALL the damn time blah! Dylon is "almost" at the potty trainin' finishin' line :) YAY! Victoria has had just a HUGE mega boom in her vocab lately & it just tickles us! What a PROUD mommy I am! I am still AMAZED at how much unconditional love just fills up from bein' a MOMMY & I am so THANKFUL for every day that I get to wake up to see the 2 most BEAUTIFUL faces every day ahhh so fulla love each & every day! I can't believe hubs' & I's 7yr anniversary is this month! Goodness we've been through hell & back & our still together & I love him more now than I did when we 1st got married! We're in this for the long hall, the good & the bad, the thick & the thin, the happy & the sad times! It just doesn't get any better than this! I'm just lovin' life!

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♥Seriously Slackin' Here...

Ok so I need to start keepin' up with this thing more often but sheesh my tag site seems to be takin' up any free time I get YIKES lol! Hope to be back here really soon with an update!

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♥Startin' Chemotherapy Meds...

Yep you sure did read that title right. I start chemotherapy meds Monday. Those sores I have poppin' up all over my body are a rare sore form of psoriasis. Not many treatment options for it either. Chemotherapy is one of them. This stuff is spreadin' like wildfire. They hurt so much. It hurts for my babies to give me hugs & that itself just kills me inside :(. It takes me an hr every night before I go to bed to bandage them up so I don't get blood all over the place while I'm sleepin'. They are always openin' up & bleedin'. My hair is fallin' out faster than the speed of light cause of it. I have to completely cover up b4 leavin' the house cause of all the stares I get from people. My 3yr old son told someone a few wks ago to stop starin' at his mommy & that made me break out into tears. I HATE it when people look at me & treat me like I have the friggen plague which I don't heck it's not even contagious for goodness sakes, but it still hurts nonetheless. So I start chemotherapy meds Monday. Have to be on a really high dose of folic acid while on this treatment, have to be seen once a month, & have to have lab work done all the time. This all just really sucks. Havin' another baby is totally out of the picture pretty much. So not it might be even longer in between posts it just depends on how my body reacts to the chemo meds. Talked to a few women today that took them & so I know what to more than likely expect so yeah not feelin' to great about that part, but I've got no other choice here. I mean it's suffer from chemo meds or suffer from sores which I just can't do anymore.

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♥Been A Long While...

Yeah yeah I know where on earth have I been?! Things have been a tad crazy around here with 2 sick kids that not only had a tummy bug but also had pink eye for the 1st time on top of it all...fun fun...NOT! I have also been very busy with a new tag & siggy site on myspace! Yep I finally got off my butt & learned how to make tags with transparent backgrounds! I downloaded that free trial of Adobe Photoshop CS4 Extended & I just fell in LOVE with it! That program usually runs about $1000 but hubs found it on ebay for $400 so not too bad a deal lol! Since I scrapbook & now make tags my 180gb hard drive is now down to just a tiny lil' 3% free space so he also got me a 1,500gb external hard drive so I'll have some more space! He gave me some extra money to go nuts on buyin' some new scrap kits & pin up toons for my tags! Ah whata sweet sweet man I'm married too! I must say though I am really enjoyin' myself more than when I made scrapbook pages yep that's right haven't made a page since I made my 1st tag lol! ***UPDATE*** I shut down old tag site will have a new one up soon :)!

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♥Gosh I'm Sleepy...

So today was a bit of the same ole thing. Cleaned up around the house. Did a few loads of laundry. Cooked well you know the basic stuff lol. Dylon was such the lil' helper today. He seems to think that it is officially HIS job to hand me the clean dishes outta the dishwasher now. If I even try to do it myself he has a cow lol. Such a good lil' helper I have! I entered another scrap challenge today. This one was to redo our very 1st scrap page. We had to keep the same pics & same journalin' on it. So this is what I entered: (Don't laugh it was my 1st):

BEFORE:

Kit Used: A freebie kit from Scrapbook Flair

AFTER:

Kit Used: Absolute Cherry Crush by Lauren Grier, Shawna Clingerman & Penny Springmann

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♥A Long Sigh...

Whew ok so that meetin' hubs' had today went better than what everyone thought it was goin' to. They didn't lay off anyone which was GREAT! They said they don't look to be layin' off ppl anytime soon but with the ever worsenin' economy it could happen further down the road. Who knows what the future holds a month or so down the road right?! They mainly just went over no more overtime, for them to watch their hours, watch how much they are spendin', & threw around some ideas to help better their situation that would benefit all the employees. Hubs' says he's super relieved for a bit & to be honest so am I! I did a gooberfied thing lastnight. I bit a lil over halfway into my tounge. Won't go into details on how I did cause I feel dumb enough lol. So needless to say I am on a liquid & soft food diet for 4days to give it some time to heal up...oh joy NOT! Hubs was a sweetie though tonight & made his yummy strawberry cheesecake & it was soft enough I could eat it...not like I really need it though. So I joined cafemom.com a few days ago & I must say I am likin' it so far. I did a scrap for the newbie challenge in one of the groups I joined. It is kinda like a gettin' to know you type of thing. So here is mine:

Kit Used: Chit Chat by Kristin Cronin-Barrow

Semi Scraplifted from SSD Gallery

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♥Here We Go Again With The Worries...

My goodness there are ALL kinds of rumors goin' around about what hubs' company meetin' is for tomorrow. Some ppl say it's to lay off ppl. Some say it's to talk about no more overtime. Some say it's to tell them all to start watchin' what they spend & some say it's about all of that combined. Who knows?! My Uncle that works for the company (he brings business in for them) is headed to Texas to try to get more business since that state is boomin' in the oil field dept. So hopefully he can but that means seein' less of my hubby :(. The kids & I miss him like crazy when he's gone. But I have to look on the bright side (granted he doesn't get laid off tomorrow) at least he'll still have a job hopefully.

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♥Tired, Tired, & Oh Did I Mention Tired...

Today felt rather loooong. I think it had somethin' to do with the kids fightin' like cats & dogs ALL day long. So I played referee all day today. I am so glad they don't get like this often cause I think I would just literally pull my hair out lol. Got some cleanin' done in the middle of all of it so it wasn't a total loss. They were still goin' at it after supper so they both ended up goin' to bed 15mins early tonight. I rarely ever do that but man oh man my nerves just couldn't hack the constant bickerin' anymore. It makes me feel bad when I have to do that but luckily it's rare & us mommies gotta do what we gotta do right?! On another note I did manage to get a scrapbook page done tonight. Here it is:

Kit Used: Lullaby by Misty Cato Designs

Scraplifted from SSD Gallery w/ a few of my own touches

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♥He Still Has A Job YAY...

So they actually didn't lay off anyone today but they did lay off 3 ppl a few wks ago. Hubs says they all have to attend a meetin' at the shop this Sunday. It hasn't been said what this meetin' is for exactly. Sure hopein' they won't be layin' ppl off at that time. In other news we got a bit of snow lastnight while we all slept so we took the kids outside to try to build a snowman but the snow was just too dang powdery. It just wouldn't stick for nothin'. Dylon was a bit disappointed but had fun playin' in the snow anyways. Here are a few pics from today:

Dylon

Victoria Gettin' ready to hit brother with a snowball. Runnin' after mommy with a snowball (which he did get me with lol).

My handsome lil' man!My beautiful lil' girl!

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♥A Small Glimmer Of Hope Maybe...

Ok so hubs talked to one of the managers I guess u'd call him who talked to one of the upper bosses & he says that he "thinks" hubs is "safe" because he is an asset to the company. He knows every job type & he is one of the few that actually works instead of sittin' on his ass in the break room all day doin' nothin'. So fingers doubly crossed that he gets to keep his job. Hopein' tomorrow brings great news for him! Ugh which reminds me I have a drs appt tomorrow. I hate havin' health issues blah! Ok so I couldn't sleep for worryin' so dang much so I tinkered around with a new scrapbook page although I wasn't really "tryin'" to make one it just sorta happened lol. You be the judge :)!

Kit Used: "tiny cowgirl" by britt-ish designs

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♥Just Not Good At All...

Welp we found out today that the company hubs works for is downsizin' due to our economy crisis...6ppl are to be let go either tomorrow or Thursday. I seriously hope that his job is "safe". This all just has my stomach in aweful knots & my ulcer is actin' up on me a bit. "If" they let him go things will be tight around here for a while. You gotta do whatcha gotta do right?! Not only is his job in jeopardy but my dad's is too he also works there. The shop they have in another town axed my uncle today. This all really really sucks. I so feel for those that have already lost their jobs due to this mess we are in. Goodness I really hope things turn around for the better SOON! Meanwhile since things are just SO bad lookin' right now both hubs & myself have decided that I will stay on the pill for a little while longer till we know for 100% that things financially will be ok. This was a tough decision that has hurt us both but we know it's for the best for now. We are just bein' thankful that we got lucky enough to have 2 beautiful babies & not only that but one of each as well!

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♥Just Gettin' Started...

Ok so I am startin' this for my own sanity lol. I SO need a place to vent & whatnot. Perhaps have a new place to share my digi scraps at hehe! So I'ma gonna try really hard to blog every day if not that at least as often as I possibly can! With that said it's late & I am so outie for the night!

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