♥Startin' Chemotherapy Meds...

Yep you sure did read that title right. I start chemotherapy meds Monday. Those sores I have poppin' up all over my body are a rare sore form of psoriasis. Not many treatment options for it either. Chemotherapy is one of them. This stuff is spreadin' like wildfire. They hurt so much. It hurts for my babies to give me hugs & that itself just kills me inside :(. It takes me an hr every night before I go to bed to bandage them up so I don't get blood all over the place while I'm sleepin'. They are always openin' up & bleedin'. My hair is fallin' out faster than the speed of light cause of it. I have to completely cover up b4 leavin' the house cause of all the stares I get from people. My 3yr old son told someone a few wks ago to stop starin' at his mommy & that made me break out into tears. I HATE it when people look at me & treat me like I have the friggen plague which I don't heck it's not even contagious for goodness sakes, but it still hurts nonetheless. So I start chemotherapy meds Monday. Have to be on a really high dose of folic acid while on this treatment, have to be seen once a month, & have to have lab work done all the time. This all just really sucks. Havin' another baby is totally out of the picture pretty much. So not it might be even longer in between posts it just depends on how my body reacts to the chemo meds. Talked to a few women today that took them & so I know what to more than likely expect so yeah not feelin' to great about that part, but I've got no other choice here. I mean it's suffer from chemo meds or suffer from sores which I just can't do anymore.

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♥Been A Long While...

Yeah yeah I know where on earth have I been?! Things have been a tad crazy around here with 2 sick kids that not only had a tummy bug but also had pink eye for the 1st time on top of it all...fun fun...NOT! I have also been very busy with a new tag & siggy site on myspace! Yep I finally got off my butt & learned how to make tags with transparent backgrounds! I downloaded that free trial of Adobe Photoshop CS4 Extended & I just fell in LOVE with it! That program usually runs about $1000 but hubs found it on ebay for $400 so not too bad a deal lol! Since I scrapbook & now make tags my 180gb hard drive is now down to just a tiny lil' 3% free space so he also got me a 1,500gb external hard drive so I'll have some more space! He gave me some extra money to go nuts on buyin' some new scrap kits & pin up toons for my tags! Ah whata sweet sweet man I'm married too! I must say though I am really enjoyin' myself more than when I made scrapbook pages yep that's right haven't made a page since I made my 1st tag lol! ***UPDATE*** I shut down old tag site will have a new one up soon :)!

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