♥Startin' Chemotherapy Meds...

Yep you sure did read that title right. I start chemotherapy meds Monday. Those sores I have poppin' up all over my body are a rare sore form of psoriasis. Not many treatment options for it either. Chemotherapy is one of them. This stuff is spreadin' like wildfire. They hurt so much. It hurts for my babies to give me hugs & that itself just kills me inside :(. It takes me an hr every night before I go to bed to bandage them up so I don't get blood all over the place while I'm sleepin'. They are always openin' up & bleedin'. My hair is fallin' out faster than the speed of light cause of it. I have to completely cover up b4 leavin' the house cause of all the stares I get from people. My 3yr old son told someone a few wks ago to stop starin' at his mommy & that made me break out into tears. I HATE it when people look at me & treat me like I have the friggen plague which I don't heck it's not even contagious for goodness sakes, but it still hurts nonetheless. So I start chemotherapy meds Monday. Have to be on a really high dose of folic acid while on this treatment, have to be seen once a month, & have to have lab work done all the time. This all just really sucks. Havin' another baby is totally out of the picture pretty much. So not it might be even longer in between posts it just depends on how my body reacts to the chemo meds. Talked to a few women today that took them & so I know what to more than likely expect so yeah not feelin' to great about that part, but I've got no other choice here. I mean it's suffer from chemo meds or suffer from sores which I just can't do anymore.

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